Prayer....watch it

I can't believe I don't see the things right in front of me when God answers my prayers. Like the mini van, for instance. The paer work being lost, no car in the future....and I rebuke God....."sure..another road block you throw up in front of us"...then we get the minivan back RIGHT before they close.....I suck and God knows it. I need to open my eyes to what is in front of me and be forever grateful for it. God also knows that. Get over myself. I hate being human sometimes. But then that would be to hate God.....rock and a hard place.

Steps on my journey

July 10th, 2005

Today was St. Benedict's Feast Day Picnic and Vespers for our church. We went to St. James Cathedral for the very first time. We met Father Ryan and Father Steve took us on a tour of the whole church. http://www.stjames-cathedral.org/Tour/default.htm I am still not sure about what the Blessed Sacrament is but I couldn't help but look at it it in total adoration...just like it was "genetic" to do so. I think I am going to like returning to my faith. You can't help but feel God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit as we were surrounded by all things glorious. I always seem to feel better after Mass. I just wish I could learn to be more patient as I wait for my First Communion. I am jealous that others can receive My Lord and My God and I cannot...yet. I know my day is coming very soon so I should just get over it. It's just that I don't feel as close to Them as I know I could. Everyone thinks I am nuts...except Jennifer....but I pray that one of our girls enters the Vocation. I think if it was one of them, she would be Lily..but I would feel so blessed as a mother and Catholic. After all, Our Blessed Mother gave up her only Son to all of us...and she asks that we pray that our children enter an order, doesn't she??